I just found my paedophile father over the internet...And now I feel scared, confused and lost.?

maybe you need to consider talking to your mom....I bet she would want you to...if you can't do that then go to a counselor. I have a friend who had the same problem and is now a well adjusted adult ( after counseling) good luck...don't hurt yourself, you didn't do anything wrong and we cannot help who we are related to.